haha

ok so this is a bad picture cuz i was in pain, (not the arm) and it was an awkward first date.

ralizations

I was sitting listening to music just now and i realized that if something has an effect on your life (whether good or bad) you feel it every time you assciate with something from it, or that reminds you of it. I was listening to "call me when your sober" and that was D's favorrite song, and i am over him, but i t made me remeber the good times, and kinda make me miss them. but at the same times, it made me look at the bad times(tho there were few) and made me happy as can be that i dont have to deal with it.
ANd it also maffe me realize that if you love someone..you can never stop loving them. Thats why your always trying to make ex friends, boyfriends, girlfriend, and people you loved in the past know you still exist.

then it lead me to realized that no matter how someone treats you when your totally inlove, you will take it. Humans are afraid of heart break, and denile, so thats why many woman stay in abusive relationships....it takes a VERY emotionally mature and stable person to get out of bad sitchations no matter how in love they are.

this could all be bull shit but i have been thinking on it for a while, WE LOVE BEING LOVED AND WE lOVE TO KNOW WE ARE LOVED. if no one loved you, or it felt as tho no one did, you would find no need to live. so LOVE is God. God keeps us alive, and based on my theory, so does love, are at least makes us want to stay alive.

wow thats a lot of thougts...lol

good night i guess. no one will read i dont think